Miracle on Main Street 5k & Santa’s Little Helpers Dash

December is when? Tomorrow? No, that’s not right. Labor Day was just last week and I’m pretty sure that Thanksgiving came early this year.

I can’t believe that it is, first of all, the beginning of the holiday season, and secondly, almost 2018. What the hell is that? It is incredibly cliché, but the older you get, the years definitely get shorter and time moves at the speed of light, no, ridiculous speed, no…ludicrous speed! When life goes by that quickly, everything goes plaid. (bonus points if you know what movie this is from)

Well, as long as the holidays are here, it’s time to celebrate like it’s 1999 – I just graduated high school with no clue what I wanted to do with my life and I hated running. Hated with a passion is more like it. Fast forward to 2017 and I am geeked to run the Miracle on Main Street 5k and Santa’s Little Helpers Dash. Well, I’m not running the Dash, only the 5k. I looooove me a holiday race. This is the second year for the race and the inaugural race was seriously fun, so I have high hopes for this year.One of the coolest things about this race is the swag. No, it’s not your average race t-shirt. It is a long stripey scarf that is totally warm and incredibly stylish. The scarf comes in red/white and green/white stripes. Last year I went for the green and this year I’m scouting out a red one. I need a collectible set.

While I’m not a fan of long straight stretches of running in a race, I like this course because it goes through neighborhoods and has some fun spectator support along the way. If you didn’t register yet, you can sign up here or the day of the race, by 3:45 p.m. for the 4 p.m. start.

After not running many races in 2017, I guess I’m ending the year with a bang – including this coming Sunday, I’ll have run three 5k’s in 11 days. I’m incredibly happy to be back in the running game and getting pretty stoked to start training for the Mercy Health Glass City Marathon.

The Struggle Bus

When it comes to running, bodybuilding, and losing weight – consistency is key.

Getting out to run, getting to the gym, and eating better can be so easy some days and painful the others. The painful days are when you really have to remember that consistency is key.
Nothing changes if nothing changes.

It is easy to hop on the struggle bus and let it take you away from running, the gym, and towards all of the delicious food you shouldn’t be overeating. (eating delicious food isn’t bad, eating too much of it is)

There are two months until 2018 begins. (wow, right? freaking 2018) Don’t wait until the new year to start to change the things you want. Think of how much you can accomplish in two months instead of waiting.

Happy Belated Birthday to This Old Lady

That’s right, I said Happy Birthday to myself because why the hell not?

So, when your new job duties include being on your computer all day, it is hard to want to be on your laptop at night. The only time I do crack my laptop at night is to work. I like my new job duties, but they definitely keep me hopping.

In between my working and working and working, I found some time to run a few races of Labor Day weekend. Labor Day? Yeah, I’m just catching up from two weeks ago.

Chad and I ran in the Boy Scout Half Marathon & 5k. We ran the Tenderfoot 5k. The weather was perfect for running and Chad ended up with a new PR. I did not PR at all. Not even close. I haven’t run in quite some time and knew I wouldn’t be at my best. But, I always love a good run for fun! As a Run Toledo Ambassador, I was able to rep them with my swanky new ambassador shirt.

The very next day we ran in the Olander 24 Hour Ultra Run. This was an experience for sure! There are two ways to participate in the run; as an individual and as a team. The goal is to run as many laps around Olander Park as possible. Each lap is 1.091 miles. Imagine damn near 24 hours of running. Wow, right?
The winning individual ran 110 laps which equals out to 120.07 miles. The winning team ran 149.9 laps which equals 163.62 miles. The team I was on, Candu Run Run, finished with 146.61 laps which equals 160.02 miles. We were SO damn close to winning.

I’ve been keeping up with the gym (and not running as I should) and since Chad and I moved in together, I don’t live next to the Maumee River. Crazy sad because I love living near the water, but I remembered that there is an amazing park that I love to visit, Bo loved it too.

I celebrated my 36th birthday last week and which I loathe getting older, it isn’t getting to me…too much. The number ‘6’ behind the the 3 is hard to read to be honest with you. Time is slipping past me and I can’t handle it sometimes.

Look at this amazing cake that Chad got for me. I have never had my picture on a cake and this was awesome. I have had my fill of cake for a little while. HA, lies! Anyone who knows me knows that I can eat cake every damn day! But I don’t because my ass is the size of Ohio otherwise. Chad made this a fantastic day for me and I’m thankful I have him in my life to do all the things with me. 

I have a ton of races on my calendar this fall and I’m going to be around more in an annoyingly fun way.
Happy Running & Lifting!

2017 Ohio Michigan 8k

It’s done. I registered us for the Ohio Michigan 8k.
This will be the longest race that Chad has ever run and my fourth or fifth time running this race.

It is always hot and humid and while I want to hate it, I love this race SO much. Since I started running six+ years ago I have always made a point to fit this race in my calendar. While the scenery is typical Ohio Michigan farmland-type action, the after party is what makes the evening truly fun.

I couldn’t run the race last year due to only being 2 months post-op, but I’m back this year and ready to PR. I haven’t run this race since I started my new heart medication in December of 2016 and started running around two minutes per mile faster, so I have no clue what I’ll be able to accomplish. Of course, I have a goal finish time in mind and I’m going to do everything I can to hit it.

Do you have certain races you love to run every year?

Monday’s Motivation

Sometimes Things are Both Physically & Mentally Painful

I tend to eat better and exercise more often/with more intensity when I have an end goal. Sure, being healthy is a great end goal but blah blah blah. I need a ‘tangible’ end goal. When I trained for my bodybuilding competition in 2014, I had an end goal, one that put me up in front of a lot of people in a tiny competition suit. That was all the motivation I needed. I don’t have an end goal right now and my mind doesn’t kick into beast mode without one. I am running the Mercy Health Glass City Marathon in just over two months, but I am confident that I’ll be fine for the race. I am struggling with my weight and with the injuries that are taking their toll on my body. I need an end goal. I need motivation. Most of all, I need my body to cooperate with me.

In 2016 I battled a sixth knee surgery and with my heart condition. I slowly made a return to running over the fall and as of November I felt ready to take on a full running program to train for a half. Then it happened. I was sleeping and woke up with back spasms from the disc I slipped in early 2014. The best part is how I initially slipped the disc…by losing 40 pounds. Yeah, losing weight hurt my back. The short story, my back was used to being ‘hugged’ by my excess weight and when I lost it, my spine wasn’t ready for it.


Three weeks later and I’m still sidelined with this back injury. I ran twice and both times I could feel my disc, but didn’t feel pain from it. I lifted once with light weights and it strained my back as well. I am relatively in shape (but overweight for my height and body type) and I try to take care of myself, but I can’t get around the injuries that are never going away. My knee will always have issues. My heart will always have issues. My back is stupid and will have issues (unless I have surgery). I am not comfortable in my body when I look like this or feel like this. Changes are on the horizon.

I feel like I’m being cheated out of the fun parts of my spare time. Instead of run with my running family or spend time at the gym, I couch. My couch and I are pretty good friends now, but I need this friendship to take a break. I am antsy and I am feeling angry about these constant setbacks. Mentally, I am defeated and I won’t feel much better until I can run and lift again. I feel broken and none of this is fair. But, life isn’t fair so I can’t complain much.


Yes, I can get through this.
Yes, I can overcome anything.
Yes, I am strong-willed.
Yes, I know this will all pass and I’ll be even stronger after it ends.
Even though I stumble, I will not fall, but these damn setbacks are KILLING me.

Reinventing Myself

It has been a few years since I had outgrown my previous blog name and focus. I tried to think of a new name and a new way to write. I needed something that represented my interests over the past few years as well as current interests.

When I started writing nine years ago, I didn’t have anything in mind to cover except for my everyday life.
That life was forced and faked.
That life had a lot of pain.
That life was controlled and manipulated.

My new life is something that I’m happy to be living. My new life is something that I have control over and no one else can take that away from me.

Something as simple as changing my blog name and focus helps me to retain that control over my life. It helps me to shed the issues from my past and remind me that I am loved.

I have people in my life who respect me and the things I want to accomplish. My goals and aspirations are just as important to them as they are to me. Best of all, I respect myself now.


Bodybuilding and running are only two of the many ways that I show myself respect.
I have a family and friends who are always at my side and have my back.
But the biggest surprise of 2016 was meeting someone who makes me want to be a better person in every way. He has shown me what life should be like with someone by my side, supporting my every decision.

Reinvention is complete is so many ways. 🙂