I tend to eat better and exercise more often/with more intensity when I have an end goal. Sure, being healthy is a great end goal but blah blah blah. I need a ‘tangible’ end goal. When I trained for my bodybuilding competition in 2014, I had an end goal, one that put me up in front of a lot of people in a tiny competition suit. That was all the motivation I needed. I don’t have an end goal right now and my mind doesn’t kick into beast mode without one. I am running the Mercy Health Glass City Marathon in just over two months, but I am confident that I’ll be fine for the race. I am struggling with my weight and with the injuries that are taking their toll on my body. I need an end goal. I need motivation. Most of all, I need my body to cooperate with me.
In 2016 I battled a sixth knee surgery and with my heart condition. I slowly made a return to running over the fall and as of November I felt ready to take on a full running program to train for a half. Then it happened. I was sleeping and woke up with back spasms from the disc I slipped in early 2014. The best part is how I initially slipped the disc…by losing 40 pounds. Yeah, losing weight hurt my back. The short story, my back was used to being ‘hugged’ by my excess weight and when I lost it, my spine wasn’t ready for it.
Three weeks later and I’m still sidelined with this back injury. I ran twice and both times I could feel my disc, but didn’t feel pain from it. I lifted once with light weights and it strained my back as well. I am relatively in shape (but overweight for my height and body type) and I try to take care of myself, but I can’t get around the injuries that are never going away. My knee will always have issues. My heart will always have issues. My back is stupid and will have issues (unless I have surgery). I am not comfortable in my body when I look like this or feel like this. Changes are on the horizon.
I feel like I’m being cheated out of the fun parts of my spare time. Instead of run with my running family or spend time at the gym, I couch. My couch and I are pretty good friends now, but I need this friendship to take a break. I am antsy and I am feeling angry about these constant setbacks. Mentally, I am defeated and I won’t feel much better until I can run and lift again. I feel broken and none of this is fair. But, life isn’t fair so I can’t complain much.
Yes, I can get through this.
Yes, I can overcome anything.
Yes, I am strong-willed.
Yes, I know this will all pass and I’ll be even stronger after it ends.
Even though I stumble, I will not fall, but these damn setbacks are KILLING me.
It has been a few years since I had outgrown my previous blog name and focus. I tried to think of a new name and a new way to write. I needed something that represented my interests over the past few years as well as current interests.
When I started writing nine years ago, I didn’t have anything in mind to cover except for my everyday life.
That life was forced and faked.
That life had a lot of pain.
That life was controlled and manipulated.
My new life is something that I’m happy to be living. My new life is something that I have control over and no one else can take that away from me.
Something as simple as changing my blog name and focus helps me to retain that control over my life. It helps me to shed the issues from my past and remind me that I am loved.
I have people in my life who respect me and the things I want to accomplish. My goals and aspirations are just as important to them as they are to me. Best of all, I respect myself now.
Bodybuilding and running are only two of the many ways that I show myself respect.
I have a family and friends who are always at my side and have my back.
But the biggest surprise of 2016 was meeting someone who makes me want to be a better person in every way. He has shown me what life should be like with someone by my side, supporting my every decision.
Reinvention is complete is so many ways. 🙂
Thanksgiving is in less than FOUR days and I’m completely geeked! I am that nerd who plans out the entire day so I stay on track. My schedule for Thursday begins with Dave’s Turkey Chase 5k & Kids Run!This is the second year for the Turkey Chase and it sounds like it’ll be even better than the first. I really enjoyed the inaugural running and I’m excited to see the changes in year two!
Here are a few things to know about Thursday:
Where and What Time is the Race?
WTOL-11 in Downtown Toledo
730 North Summit, Toledo, 43604
The 5k begins at 9 a.m.
The Kids Fun Run begins at 8:30 a.m.
What is the Race Course?
(click on the map to enlarge)It starts on Summit St. at WTOL 11, turning right onto Monroe St. passed 5/3 Field, then turns right onto Huron St. passing by the Huntington Center. The course continues on Huron St. across Cherry St. to Bush St; turns right on Bush St. going passed the YMCA, then turning right on Summit St., left on Lagrange and right on Water St. to the finish at WTOL 11.
Does Dave’s Turkey Chase Benefit any Charities? Because It’s Thanksgiving and I’m Feeling Extra Generous!
Cherry Street Mission Ministries and Hannah’s Socks
Click here to donate to either charity
Please bring canned goods, socks and shoes to the race to donate to these charities!!
Can I Track a Runner or Give my Info to Friends and Family to Track Me? I’m Probably Going to Win the Whole Thing and Want Them to Watch.
Yes! This race is offering free race day live tracking and cheers through the RaceJoy app. Download it on your phone and you’ll be able to set this up in no time. It is the same tracking app used for the Mercy Health Glass City Marathon.
I Know NOTHING About Parking in Downtown Toledo!
For getting to and from the Turkey Chase 5k start/finish line, the most convenient parking is at the Vistula Parking Garage. You will be required to pay $5 upon entering. The gates will be opened after the start of the race so that you can leave without any delay once you finish the race.
You may also park at the Holy Trinity Greek Orthodox Cathedral, 740 N Superior St., or any other downtown lot, meter and legal parking spot. All parking is at your own risk.
Maritime Plaza — Volunteers Only
Holy Trinity Greek Orthodox Cathedral — $5 Parking Donation to Church
Vistula — $5 Event Parking
Ample parking is available in the Vistula Parking Garage. Use the entrance off of Superior. — View Map
Did You Sayyyyy Kids Run?
Sure did. Kids 1/4 mile Turkey Chase run starts at 8:30 a.m., immediately followed by the 1/2 mile option. There is no charge for these events, but all participants must be registered and wearing an official BIB to participate.
Are There Water Stops? I’ll Simply Die Without Water.
Then you’re in luck because there are two water stops on the course! Near mile 1 and near mile 2. Of course there will be goodies at the finish line, like that free banana we all love so much.
Does Running a 5k Negate All of my Thanksgiving Calories?
Now I’m not a doctor or registered dietitian, but I think it does! A 5k offsets ALL of the calories you eat during the course of the day. Just another reason to come out and run with your family and friends!
yeah, that may be a bunch of BS, but you can believe everything you read on the internet. the internet told me so.
Holy Turkey I Forgot to Register! Where Can I Take Care of This?
You can still register online here or stop in to Dave’s Running Shop in Perrysburg or Sylvania on Tuesday and Wednesday between 12-8 p.m. OR you can register the day of the race, starting at 7:30 a.m. at the WTOL 11 parking lot.
If you have any questions, ask away! Otherwise, I’ll see you on Thursday morning!
I don’t even know where to begin.
Last week was Homecoming at work and that means 75+ hours of busy af and running around like crazy.
It is absolutely worth it when it comes to the day of Homecoming, but the week before can be rough sometimes.
To add to the busy schedule, I had a minor surgery on Monday. Nothing big, I had an ear tube in my left ear. No, I am not seven years old. No, I don’t have constant ear infections.
Why get one?
I had a double ear infection, for the first time in 10 or more years, and while doing something extremely sexy like blowing my nose, I ruptured my ear drum. I felt it pop and then I got extremely dizzy. It was awesome.
My ear, nose and throat doc (ENT) let me know that if it didn’t heal on its own, that it would need something done to help it heal. Hence, the tube. Nine months later and it hadn’t improved in any way. I am feeling pretty well now, three days after surgery, but still not best. My ear is even more muffled and full of pressure than it was before, but this is normal I was told. So, until I heal more, I won’t be hearing as well for a bit.
This meaning, if you plan on sneaking up on me, do so on the left side as I can’t hear as well from that ear.
Other than recovering from surgery and Homecoming week, I’m just trying to get back into the swing of things. Especially with bodybuilding and running. I need to get back to the dedication I had before the crazy began. I’m cutting, which as any bodybuilding understands, isn’t the most fun thing ever invented. Carbs are life and giving some of them up is rough af!
I do have a new inspiration to my life regarding…well, everything…and that has made all the difference. Finding someone who makes you want to be a better person is life changing and I’ve never experienced that before.
Life is happy again in a way it wasn’t ever before.
I ran the MacQueen’s Run for Your Life 10k in 2014, its Inaugural year, and for the second running in 2015.
2014 – 1:15:12 – 12:07 pace
2015 – 1:06:45 – 10:52 pace
I had a PR of 8:27 in 2015 from my 2014 time and my eyes just about bugged out of my damn head when I saw that. The pace I ran at that race is slower than the pace I have been running all of 2016 so I have high hopes of a 2:45 PR this year.
I love a good Thanksgiving morning race!
I call Thanksgiving the cook’s holiday. If you love to cook like I do, then this holiday is always so much fun.
Having a great run in the morning doesn’t make me feel better about rushing home to consume all of the food ever, but it is a great way to get your workout in with over 2,500 running friends in downtown Toledo!
2015 was the inaugural year for Dave’s Turkey Chase 5k run/walk and I ran with a friend of mine and tried to get her a PR in the 5k, but it was a no-go.
So, this year’s race will be a PR for this race and I’d like to PR my 5k time and I know that I can do it!What fall races do you have planned?
2016 has been an interesting year for me, health-wise.
It seems like all of the things that have gone wrong in the past, are reprising their role this year. Nothing extreme, and I’m happy it’s all happening at once because that means I’ll be fit as a fiddle soon enough, because everyone knows how fit fiddles are.
*The first week of the year I had a double ear infection, sinus infection and bronchitis. During this week I ended up rupturing an ear drum, because that’s what all the cool kids do and I always like to keep up with the Joneses. My Ear, Nose & Throat (ENT) doctor said that due to my history of ear issues as a child, if the ear drum didn’t heal itself, I’d need an adult ear tube.
*From January to May I fought against my bad knee to try and get through Mercy Health Glass City Marathon training. I already had surgery #6 planned on May 4th, and that went extremely well. My knee is feeling absolutely fantastic since I started running again and other than minor issues, I don’t have to worry about it anymore
*I had crazy success with my new heart med that I began taking around Christmas 2015. I am now 2 minutes per mile faster due to my heart being able to regulate my mitral valve regurgitation more efficiently. Two minutes, yeah, that’s a shit ton and any runner will understand that is a huge deal. It happened in under three weeks and shocked the hell outta me. When I took a few months off of running for my knee to heal, my heart fell out of shape when it came to cardio. I am now retraining my heart to pump efficiently so I don’t feel like I’m going to pass out when I am running. A work in progress currently.
*Just over a week ago I woke up unable to move freely due to my herniated disc in my lower spine. Who the hell knows what I did when I was sleeping that it was so fierce to me. It did go away within five days, but it was a pain that forced me to couch for two days straight. Know what initially caused my disc to slip? Losing 40 pounds. No, seriously. My spine was so used to me being heavier and I when dropped the weight it was shocked and the disc slipped out of place. Crazy, right? I haven’t had any spine issues in over a year and a half, and this was minor so I’m not too worried about this at all.
*When visiting the ENT last week I told him my ear drum didn’t feel any better eight months later and we decided I need an ear tube. My ear drum is concave towards the inner ear and it should be flat…like a drum. This means that I have a certain amount of pressure that is living behind my ear drum. Since it hasn’t gotten any better (and won’t get any better if it hasn’t already) and I’ve had such crazy ear issues in the past, it means a minor surgery. October 17th will be the day for me. I really can’t wait because it feels like my ear needs to pop ALL THE FUCKING TIME. There are times that there is a little bit of pain there, too, but mostly just constant pressure. It is also hard to hear clearly out of that ear.
My medical background is lengthy, right? And that’s just this year.
I am due for a break soon.