Positive Vibes

Now that I found a point where I’m feeling more focused and relaxed with life, I am trying to fill my time with positive activities.
Bo. Running. Lifting. Working more. Strengthening my faith.
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I didn’t think it was possible, but work gets busier by the day. I don’t necessarily mind, but I know that I am neglecting other areas of my life because I’m so busy.
I have neglected Bo, housework, running and meal planning over the weeks. These are all things that I need to care for, for my sanity and for the sanity of Bo, cleanliness of the house, my health and mental well being, and for my waist line!
Probably six days out of seven I take Bo out for a walk in the evening and my boy loves them, at least I know I’m not completely neglecting him. Today was mostly chasing squirrels up trees (his fav) and staring at monuments.
2015-09-27 19.53.20Today was my second week attending Cedar Creek, and I enjoyed it more than last week, believe it or not. I’ve never been a part of a church that I actually connected with. The services aren’t strict, uptight, monotone…they are uplifting, don’t feel structured and I feel that I relate to the pastors more than my previous church. Anyways, I am just loving this new addition to my life.

I’m trying to keep my positive vibes flowing because if my bipolar is triggered in the right way, all I feel are the negative vibes. There are a lot of things that I can see the negative in. A lot. A lot. But, I am choosing the positive to focus my mind on. It’s all about perspective. But there are definitely days where my anger, jealousy and just plain ol’ depression kicks in.
Tomorrow starts another week, make it a great one!

All of the Updates

The last two months have brought more changes to my life than I’ve experienced in a years.
While nothing is new, everything is new. I’ll throw a few updates out for those who have asked for them

—> I started running again a few weeks ago. I haven’t run any ‘short’ runs yet, only longs, and they’ve gone really well.

—>I have been lifting consistently again for a few months now. It really couldn’t be going much better. I have some great gainz so far and that is excellent motivation to keep pushing myself.

—>Recently I have learned that I am worth a little more than I thought I was previously and that there is a different way to have someone you care about treat you as person. I know I’m a pretty decent person, but it’s nice for someone besides family to show me that.

—>The University of Toledo (my employer) has been kicking ass and taking some SEC (Arkansas) and Big 12 (Iowa State) names. I don’t typically get into Rocket football because I graduated from their rival, Bowling Green State University, but if they continue the rest of their season like this, there could be some playoff talk.

—>Today was the first day in years that I went to church. Church. What a foreign word to me. Church. It was frowned upon in my past life, where growing up I went to church every week. It didn’t feel right to go to my previous church right now. The church style itself didn’t seem appealing to me anymore even though I love the Pastor there. The church I went to today was a more ‘alternative’ church compared to most. I didn’t know how I would like it, but I enjoyed it much more than I thought I would. Yes, I’ll be going back next week and I’m actually excited to do so.

—>Bo and I have still been taking daily walks. We have walked all over the part of Perrysburg we live in now that he knows exactly which house has dogs. He tends to doddle at those houses, hoping he will get to bark uncontrollably at another dog. Super exciting for me.
2015-09-20 16.24.39And as I review these updates, I realize that they’re pretty lame.
I’ll think of fun things to actually post tomorrow…

Finding My Groove Again

I have been extremely absent and I’m sorry about that.
Dealing with difficult people in my life has taken its toll on my sanity some days. I am constantly learning more and more about my old family member and I am baffled at the amount of shit I didn’t know about that was going on behind my back. This helps to reaffirm that I 100% made the right choice to get out of dodge. What people do and what people say can be drastically different and when you find out the truth, it hurts you more. It hurts more because you believed the words.

2015-09-01 18.42.08I have started a new chapter of my life, and it has brought me peace for the first time in almost a decade. I no longer have to worry about what someone will say or think as their mind cooks up drama. I no longer have to worry about being accused of ridiculous acts someone believes in their head to be true. I can FINALLY do the things that make me happy in my life again. The simple act of having close friends is one of those things. I have reconnected with some amazing people and I am lucky to have them. They have opened my eyes to a lot of negatives about my life that I didn’t even know were there. I love my friends and cherish them.
I had to let go of everything in order to get everything I’ve ever wanted. I have hit that point and happiness strikes me every single day. 2015-08-30 09.52.20Bo has adjusted to living in our new house extremely well. He looks forward to his long walks at night and has already memorized the houses where he always sees squirrels. I love that the Maumee River is only one block away from my house. It is so peaceful to sit and take in the beautiful view whenever I want.
Tonight Perrysburg is holding their ‘First Friday’ event. It is a children-focused street party/fair in downtown Perrysburg. They have everything from a dunk tank to inflatables to firetrucks to music for all who attend. Bo and I walk downtown almost every single night and tonight will be no different. Even though I am not going to take part in one single thing tonight, it is always a great place to people watch. Oh, the people watching…isn’t that one of the best things when you go to a crowded area? 2015-09-02 19.06.34All in all, life is good and every day is a blessing that I get to shape into what I want in life. I’ll be around more often now that life has settled down and my freedom has returned.
Happy Friday!

National Dog Day

I think I am always the last person to hear about these fun ‘national days.’ I always miss out on waffles, or cookies, or hang gliding, or skipping under a rainbow. But today, I’m not missing out on National Dog Day.

I’m not so sure what I’m supposed to say, so all I have is – I love you Bo!

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And We Ran…

This evening didn’t go as planned but turned out pretty well. I took my gym clothes to work, changed in my office and drove to the gym. The instant I was getting out of my car I realized that I didn’t have my ipod shuffle. I am not that person who can workout in any way without some music. I did consider it. I considered lifting all of the weights without music. I considered it for 3.67 seconds and then drove home.
I’m not that person.

I was all dressed with no where to go, so I put on Bo’s harness and we went for a short run. It is still hot and humid here in NW Ohio and Bo doesn’t do well in that environment, which made it a short run. We ran just under 1.5 miles and poor Bo was panting like crazy when we got home. As I walk around the house when we get home, Bo feels the need to follow me no matter what. He is laying down, panting and dying, but if I leave the kitchen, he has to follow me. I have found it best to just sit on the floor with him, it keeps him from walking all over the house when he doesn’t need to.

2015-08-11 18.22.05To tell you the truth, I haven’t run at all since April. What?! Yup, April. The slow death of my personal life took over and I let it.
Even though, it was under 1.5 miles, it felt good. Bo runs with the speed of an Olympic sprinter and it can be hard to keep up with him. Not my speed, but it felt damn good to get out and running again. Which is good, because I have a half marathon in 6ish weeks!2015-08-11 18.23.34-1 Bo typically takes a hot minute to cool down, but the instant he does, he is right back to his old self. Which is typically sleeping or chewing on a bone.
He chose option one right after he recovered. And he earned it with his first run back.2015-08-11 18.50.37The fact that we don’t have a fenced in yard ensures that I will be running with Bo a hell of a lot more now.

I Unexpectedly Found Clarity, Direction & Purpose

Are there ever times when a workout helps to clear your head, or brings you clarity, or gives you the confidence you’ve been looking for? Does a workout sometimes give you a renewed sense of direction or purpose in your life?

I had two of those last night.
I went to the gym and lifted shoulders (one of my favorite things to lift) and hit a few a la cart areas as well. A lot of my favorite areas in the gym were full of people and I hate waiting around, so I lifted what I could. A little abs, a little triceps, a little legs…it was a good gym day. That was the first workout that helped to give me the feelings listed above.

Then I got home and took Bo for a walk.
He smelled things, he smiled back at me a few times to let me know he loved our walk, he stalked some ducks, and we generally had a very fulfilling walk. I’m not the kind of person to refer to a walk as fulfilling, so this means it was fairly epic for me.2015-05-18 19.45.46Both of my workouts tonight made me feel whole, complete. They reminded me of the important things in my life. They reminded me that I am strong and capable of anything.
My time in the gym reminded me that I should look back at my lifting log to remind myself what I was leg pressing last week so I didn’t lift 15 pounds more…even though I crushed it with the huge weight jump. Seriously though, I should take those chances, and step back if they are too much for me.
My walk reminded me that I should stop to watch the ducks, smell the flowers, watch the sunset. I am always on the go and rarely relax other than watching television. I need to stop and relax and remember to enjoy my life instead of breeze through it.

And, I already know that I should take Bo out on walks more to get him out of the house and yard. I’m going to work him up to a 5k running distance again so I can take him running this summer with me.
Plus this gives me more opportunities for my favorite Bo selfies and I can’t pass all of that up!2015-05-18 20.04.16
What have your workouts shown you, taught you or helped you realize?

Bo visits Fort Meigs & Perrysburg > Maumee

Growing up our backyard opened up into Fort Meigs, a state memorial and Ohio’s War of 1812 Battlefield. There was a lot of history living right in our backyard. My brother, Karl, and I had the best childhood roaming around the Fort.
I am trying to take Bo on walks at local parks instead of only around our neighborhood, so Fort Meigs seemed a valuable spot. 2015-04-18 16.39.15

What is Fort Meigs?
General William Henry Harrison built Fort Meigs on the Maumee River in 1813 to protect northwest Ohio and Indiana from British invasion. Today’s reconstruction is one of the largest log forts in America. British and Canadian troops, assisted by Indians under Tecumseh, besieged the fort twice. The 10-acre log enclosure with 7 blockhouses and 5 emplacements presented a formidable defense. The first assault was in May of 1813 and the second was in July. Both failed and the British retreated after the second.

The blockhouses contain exhibits explaining Ohio’s participation in the War of 1812 as well as the life at Fort Meigs. Artifacts recovered from the original fort are on display.

Karl and I would spend hours in the woods just next to the Fort. We would build forts and booby traps for unsuspecting visitors. Essentially, we did something that kids today don’t really do all that often…we played outside AND used our imaginations!!

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Two of the best sledding hills in the area are also found at the park, although, sledding isn’t allowed at all. But, when did the rules apply to something fun, like sledding? Exactly, never.
This is the smaller of the two hills. It is still fast and launches you into the wooded area at the bottom of the hill. I didn’t grab a picture of the crazy steep hill, but it is only for those who don’t mind sledding at a 60* angle towards the Maumee River. Karl actually had someone run over his wrist on a sled and it broke. As a big sister, it was hilarious to me and I taunted him accordingly.
2015-04-18 16.45.51Fort Meigs is in Perrysburg, my hometown and where I currently live. As a senior in high school you know that one of your duties as you enter your final year of mandatory education is painting the old bridge pillars. The goal was to beat our rival, Maumee High School, there and to do a much better job than them. You wanted to paint more than them and get higher than they did. You can still see some of the old artwork on there; the American flag and then in the next picture, you’ll see that Adam ♥ Lauren and the ugly purple and yellow Maumee colors that live there.
2015-04-18 16.48.35I would like to say I remember just who won out my senior year of high school, but I would like to assume that the better of the schools prevailed. Perrysburg Yellow Jackets > Maumee Panthers.
In the background of this picture is the river view of Fort Meigs. The Fort Meigs State Monument stands tall and you can make out some of the log exterior. 
DSCI00111-1024x760Bo had a great time smelling all the things and chasing all the animals. I think I am a better dog mom when I get him out of the neighborhood. The only downside is that other dog owners think Bo is so small and cute, so he MUST meet their dog. Worst idea ever. Bo plays rough, like teeth bared and I want to pretend rip your throat out rough. Most dogs and their owners aren’t ready for that action, so I have to tell them that Bo doesn’t play nicely. Either way, we had a great afternoon at Fort Meigs. Plus, I think I found a new hairstyle that really plays up my facial features.
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Have you ever been to Fort Meigs?
Do you have any historical sites in your city?